Hey guys,

I'm a bit stuck and could use the collective brain, as they say.

I brought something up in therapy today that my T said she hasn't been aware of prior. It's a feeling I get when we/I think about a caring relationship. About letting people close to me in the kind of way that a therapist would get close to a client and their 'stuff'.

I get it with friends too.

I said 'fear' but I'm really not sure there the right word, but I don't know what is. I've used the feelings wheel this afternoon and can't find it on there anywhere either.

It's as if I really want it but can't/won't let it happen, but I'm not sure why...

Any ideas??