My greatest problem with PTSD is the nightmares I have had virtually every single evening for the past 14 years.

They generally leave me paralyzed and retraumatized both mentally and physically, where the excess trauma is somatized. At times, my brain chemistry — already in shambles — is completely discombobulated and I suffer for days, even weeks, at a time.

This is where I am currently at. It’s been a week straight since I have functioned. My mind is a mess and my body is hurting as well. It seems everything I do makes it worse. So I end up staying in bed for the most part crippled by this ungodly disease.

After a fews days, I fell into depression — which is the natural response to trauma. But since I am on two anti-depressants, so I don’t go all the way down like I used to. But it just makes things worse.