Dear K,

I think I am testing you. And given my dream last night I think I am slowly but surely bracing myself for you failing, sadly. This could well be a turning point. I will be so sad if what I hope happens, doesn't, but in reality it is what I am expecting. I feel like I need to do this. To step on the ice and see if it breaks, though in this situation it's actually a case of not stepping on the ice. I do nothing and wait to see what happens. Wait to see if you remember. Wait to see if you will reach out. For the first time since last year.

And that's all I can do right now (well, it's not, is it. I could continue as we have been, but then my question won't be answered!)

I hope that you are well, and happy.

I love you loads, Me