((((((((((Taraintx)))))))))))

Was it wrong of you to snoop? Probably. Is whatever you found a reason not to trust this guy? Possibly. As someone who can relate to almost everything you wrote, I really don't think either of those things is the issue.

IMHO, the issue is that you have been hurt by others in your past, and the fear of being "made a fool of again" makes you suspicious and maybe even a little paranoid. I don't blame you, it's so hard to accept that those we have opened ourselves up to, left ourselves vulneable in front of, could abuse that trust...but they do. And here's what I've learned - it doesn't matter how wonderful you are as a girlfriend, friend, sister, wife etc., they're going to do it anyway, and there's nothing you can do to stop it. However, that doesn't mean that EVERYONE will break your trust, or that you have to go looking for it because you believe they already have. You have to accept people, and instead of being afraid of what could possibly happen in the future, learn to enjoy the present.

Truly, honestly is the best policy. If you make the people you care about aware of your fears, and how what people have done to you in other relationships has affected you, then you've done what you can to "protect yourself". Don't make the mistake I have in the past, don't end relationships before they even have a chance to grow just because you assume you know what's going to happen.

It's only been five months, I think you should give this man the benefit of the doubt, and talk to him about how you're feeling. You never know, he may be "one of the good guys"!

Good luck, I'm sending you lots of hugs...........