Dear T,
It means a lot that you'll make sure Friday works out that I can still see you. That if someone else wants to schedule, you'll prioritize me. It makes me feel like I'm important to you, even though I guess I already know that I am.

Of course, I'm worried about what you're going to the doctor for. Especially if it's someplace where there could be a "procedure" you'd have to do and wait for in the same office. But you said it wasn't the sort of thing where they'd send you directly to the ER (after my comment).

Perhaps it's an orthopedist and they might have to do an x-ray in the office, like they did with H. Or a cardiologist, and they might want you to do a stress test. Or, because we were talking about toes, a podiatrist? I'll stop now (and won't actually ask you--well, I might say that I hope you're OK, but that's not prying, just expressing something).

But you know how my mind works! You understand it even better after today--I'm glad you seem to finally get how deeply the indecisiveness and fear of making the wrong decision, even over minor stuff, affects me. How it can be nearly paralyzing at times. Interesting how you compared it to your 3 am thoughts that a pain in your toe means you're dying.

And I think that was a good discussion about what happened briefly there last session, where you got defensive. But I also understand why you did.

Anyway, see you Friday, at some point.
Love,
LT