Finally broke down and found therapy. It is a licensed social worker. I went for "health anxiety" but i have many issues.

The only weird thing I think is that she has seized upon a story from many years ago that I -- honestly -- think i am over and has nothing to do with my anxiety... but she seems obsessed.

It was lovely to have someone allow you to talk and be validating. She basically seemed to think I was right about everything. I was skipping out of the place.

I will go back next week.