Hello AG, I'm really very sorry that you're going through so much pain and torment right now. My heart breaks for you. It really does.

I've been staring at this little box for a while now....and the truth is, I'm at a loss for words to try to comfort you or offer any advice. Everything that comes to mind has already been said.....no words have comforted you, no suggestions have helped you, all advice dismissed. You're in a space right now where you've just given up...I don't know how to work with that. Who does?

So the conclusion I come to is that we just can't help you through what you're experiencing right now. We can be here to listen. We can be here to tell you we care. We can tell you that we too have been there and survived it all. But until you're ready to take some action to deal with what you're going through...I'm afraid that's all we can do. I can't stress the point enough that this too shall pass. What are you doing to help yourself???? We can't help you unless you're willing to help yourself. It's that simple.

I'm here for you AG, I'm not abandoning you or rejecting you or leaving you twisting in the wind. But it does seem that you've already done that to your own self. Stop. Then, and only then can things get better.

I hope I'm not saying anything wrong here, I just don't know what else TO say. And I NEEDED to let you know that I DO care. TgrsPurr.