I would classify that as negative introject. My mother wouldnt let me take autoshop in high school, just saying something about being one of "them". I guess now that she meant a lesbian, but wth. I knew she was panicking, but had really no idea what about. So that messed up my relationships.

Man i soooo want a do-over. But that wasnt even a concept in my childhood Say something once and you are doomed!

I really relate to so many of your posts. Its like finding an author who writes same as like you think.