I've been fine since the purge but still have the same trauma. Family flew out to see my mom & dad and I spent a day with everyone. Same old thing. Being around humans is torture and the whole time I was very dissociated. In the family photos I looked so spaced out like I was super high on drugs with my eyelids have closed. Kind of freaky.

The purge lasted about 10 to 15 days. After that it felt like spirits or whatever they are entering me again, but so far the weekly cycle from hell hasn't returned. If it gets bad enough maybe I'll be purged again.

I wish to know a nice family on the west coast in USA who would let me and my best friend, Sally, a bamboo plant stay at their farm. I would be good at doing lots of farm work. I've always been a safe person and someone who's always tried to avoid trouble. I used to be good at arguing but over the past few years will just say the minimum and leave if confronted / attacked.