Thank you, @stahrgeyzer, for a really good post. I hope you do find that special family. That would be wonderful. And your visualization of a farm sounds healthy. I use the visualization for many things, since childhood actually. Maybe it's possibly a form of daydreaming, but for me extremely valuable. It even is healing, in a spiritual way. Anyway, good luck with everything you're doing! I'm always wishing the best for you. Oh, & say hi to Sally for me?