i don't even know how to describe this feeling, its so strange.

I have this awful feeling of needing someone to take care of me. it sounds so silly but it is actually painful. i dont feel capable of getting through the day and by the time i get home from work im barely able to move half the time.

i need to feel protected but there is nobody there to do this.

i am almost afraid to say this because i feel like ill be judged but i kind of gravitate towards childish things (stuffed animals, pink, fuzzy things, etc...), and ive had people call me childish/immature/naive (i dont think that last one is true, maybe the first two). i won't have sex, i'm purity obsessed.

i dont know how to get this feeling out of me. i feel like i should be about 9 years old. im 24.

i just desperately want someone to help me. i know nobody is coming to save me, but i can't get rid of that feeling and need. every night i go to bed wishing i could feel safe