I can relate too. I sent my t two emails to which he didn't respond and a third in which I was pissed and needy. Last time, I finally started to divulge a little more and now I am totally embarrassed and humiliated, wish I hadn't, etc. I don't think I can look him in the eye anymore. I have an appt Wed., but am thinking of canceling. I've always taken care of myself too and I keep thinking why can't I do that now? I feel too dependent.