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~Christina · Nov 02, 2022, 08:11 PM

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Originally Posted by *Beth*

I just don't feel good. I'm very tired, which never helps me at all. I'm falling asleep okay, but lately awakening early and unable to get back to sleep. Honestly, I'd rather have difficulty falling asleep, then be able to sleep in the morning. The early awakening really wallops me.

I'm worried about out of my mind that another of my cats has diabetes. Sidney, my kitty who I treat for diabetes, is an intelligent, gentle, absolutely magnificent soul of a cat. Sadie, the one I'm afraid has it, is a dear little cat, so loyal and always by my side, even during the night in bed. Unfortunately, she had a horrible kittenhood; she was a rescue from a bad situation. As a result of being teased and mistreated during her first year of life, Sadie can get vicious with claws and teeth. My entire schedule, all of life, is planned around doing everything I can to keep Sidney as healthy as possible. If Sadie also has diabetes, I'm...scared. The treatment requires hands-on care at least 4 times/day (glucose testing, insulin injections).

I've been feeling sick (because I'm tired) since I awoke this morning and wish I could just go to bed. But I'm afraid I'll lie there ruminating myself into a depression.

And my internet just keeps going down. The TV does, too. The tech was out here a few days ago, things were working well, then yesterday the same crap.

I feel ashamed of myself for not handling everything better. I'm just feeling tired and defeated right now.

But today, although cold, was brightly sunny when suddenly there was a downpour of rain. So there must be a rainbow somewhere, although I looked around and didn't see one. But it's out there somewhere

You have a lot going on and you’re doing the best you can. Give yourself some grace that you would give others dealing with so much

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