I've had boyfriends etc. I just find it so frustrating that I don't feel like I connect with people on a deep level I don't know if it's a me thing or a them thing. It just feels hollow. I feel like if I was in Madeira the little island I born I'd have my family around me and there's always well known faces there's a huge community in that island it's almost like everyone knows each other. I don't have that kind of community in Australia it's like everyone just serves for themselves and I feel out of place. It's a weird thing to say because Ive lived here my whole life but I've also lived in Madeira and I just like there way of life better. I guess I have to make the most of what I have. It's hard to believe I'm in this country for any reason...