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*Beth* · Nov 06, 2022, 08:32 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Beth, I can understand how hard this day must be for you. I don’t know how I would live if my son ever decides to stop speaking to me. I actually fear it given the trauma I’ve put him through with my multiple hospitalizations. I know that’s not your situation at all but I just couldn’t imagine not hearing from him anymore. I hope one day your daughter sees sense. I know you’d welcome her back with open arms

Thank you. So, so much. Your words, and your support, mean more than I can even find words to express.

My daughter and I were always the ones who so many people asked, "How do the two of you do it, you're so close!" And we were. Definitely mother and daughter, but also best buds.

She'd gone to college, gotten married, then decided to enter university. From that time on she acted distant to me, more and more. When I asked her if something was wrong her answer was always, "Nah, I'm just tired." She was extremely moody. I was concerned (very), but put it down to the stress of classes, marriage, and just being worn out. We went to lunch and to a movie. Later that week was the 1st anniv of my sister's death and I didn't take it well. I couldn't stop crying all day. My daughter was annoyed. I finally ended up going to the psych ER because I couldn't calm myself down and stop crying.

My daughter came to the ER, was furious at me, yelling at me. I was calm, though, and explained to her that losing my sister had been extremely hard for me. N. stormed out of the hospital, cut all ties with me, and would tell David only that she needed space from me.

I had always, without fail, put her first. My best friend had chided me for years, telling me I "allowed N. to run the house." But I loved my daughter sooo much. To me, there was nothing she could do wrong. I'm still not angry at her, I'm just crushed. Completely crushed.

Anyway, thank you wfc Always keep talking with CR, keep the lines of communication open. It's all you can do. And I swear, sons are different! While N1 was so furious with me, Noah was only compassionate. He understood how I felt about my sister's death, and why I couldn't stop crying. He was right there for me.