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A rotten day. I cried all day and am so tired.
Then I tested Sidney's glucose at 10 and her number was low. That's always so scary, and she's been doing beautifully for the past couple of weeks. I fed her some high-carb food + a bit of honey; her number did go up. I'll test her again in fifteen minutes, then at midnight if her number is going up in fifteen minutes. She is such an intelligent, precious, special little being. All this poking, so much every single day; she never once fights me. Never. Why must she have this and if she must, why can some cats get stable, but Sid can't? We do every single thing right, her diet, everything.
So a day can always be worse than another day, but this day has been pretty rotten. I never thought my life would go like this, I can't understand it all. I don't understand why I lose so many beloved things. My third child would be in high school now, had that baby lived. I do count my blessings, but it gets hard.
It is raining, though, so that's nice to listen to.
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