Ps, I'm really good at practicing CBT on myself... Problem is, it doesn't help the feelings. Really. I feel like I'm the adult and the teenager all rolled in to one. You hit the nail on the head today when you said that I totally missed out on that stage of life when you learn how to have and how to manage emotions. So I'm learning how to do it now. And I guess I just have to keep telling myself what I know yo be true, and hope one day that it does affect the way I feel, because right now it doesn't seem to make a blind bit of difference.