My psychologist recommended I see the local mood disorder expert where I live close to because my current pdoc of ten years is leaving in a month and I just now found out. No need to tell y’all I’ve been to the university psych center before I was eligible for Medicaid. It was hoooooorrrible! I hated it there. And I gave them a year of my life to try to get stable before leaving and seeing my current pdoc. I mentioned my friend has an awesome psych nurse practitioner who even has Saturday appt which interests me bc of my crazy schedule during the week. My psychologist said he does not recommend me seeing any np bc of my “complicated situation.” Like wtf? I’ve been stable for 2 1/2 years. We’ve been decreasing my meds to reduce sedation and I’ve been doing phenomenal.

You could say I’m confused and maybe I cried. I mean he’s told me how severe my abuse as a child was but what exactly does he think about me? I rarely email and usually it’s an fyi thing. I don’t call. I never miss appointments.

My feelings are hurt.