I think these groups will be awesome for me and very therapeutic, especially since I don't have a therapist.

I think I may be codependent - well, I know for certain that I have been in some of my abusive relationships, the ones I did not walk away from quickly enough once I knew it was abuse. I tried to fix and help the person instead. That's codependency - and I did that with my husband too - tried to fix and change him. So, yeah, I am codependent and must learn how not to be that way anymore.

The more I learn, the better off I am. I am educating myself every morning about narcissism on YouTUbe. There's a psychiatrist I listen to who is amazingly helpful and informative about this personality disorder.

There's a support group I will join eventually for dealing with a narcissistic parent. Though my father is gone now, that's what I grew up with, and lo and behold, I've ended up with many narcissist men. Multiple at this stage. So, I have a pattern of abuse, and specifically with narcissistic men. Time to break the pattern, and it traces back to my relationship and childhood with a narcissistic father - this is my healing path now. This is my learning ground and where I will grow.