I got my nausea under control. My anxiety was bad for some reason though so I don't know if those pepto bismols cause anxiety. I fell asleep right away at 4:35. It was a bit of an odd time to fall asleep. I woke up at 8:35 but I only stayed up for a few minutes. Then I woke up again around 11 and I ate a Lunchable and drank a caffeine free Coke. I then fell back asleep until 3:45. So I'm not sure why I slept so long. I felt fine yesterday physically after the nausea, and this morning I feel fine. I'm 4 short on my valium though so I'm trying to cut them in half. So far I've taken one today split into 2. I took one half at 9 and then the other half just now.

This is strange but I don't really remember yesterday after about 1PM and I don't know why. Its like missing time or something. I know my therapy session was at 11 and I remember that. but I don't remember much about what happened after that except that I got very tired early and fell asleep for almost 12 hours.

So idk what went on. But I don't like it when I can't remember big chunks of time. It has happened a couple times recently. I think it started after I got covid.

I'm kind of getting the spacy feeling now but I had Dunkin Donuts new cookie butter donut this morning and donuts can mess with me real bad. Especially the kinds with fillings in them. They can cause me to become really out of it and can cause tunnel vision and dissociation and feelings like I'm going to pass out. I can eat the protein donuts they sell at the health section with no issue. Those are a staple for me. But actual donuts often make feel weird. So I'm thinking that is what is going on today.

I told my therapist about the podcast I listened to where she said how you don't mess with big peoples food and you don't mess with small peoples food. And my therapist immediatly got excited and said "yes!" And went on about this story about her eating a giant half a pizza one time while pregnant and someone commenting on it. Lol. I told my last heavyset therapist that same comment from the podcast and she got kinda pissed at me for saying it and called me a "greenlight" whatever that is, and asked if I really wanted to get better.

I've gotten some weird looks from people before while carrying around a basket at the grocery store with nothing but Lunchables in it but no one ever said anything and the grocery store is finally fully back in stock.