TY everyone
In all honesty, I do find I whine too much

It can be hard to tell what I'm thinking and what's just been hammered into my head I guess, but I read back on what I write and I think that I sound stupid. I try to pride myself on being tough (which I am far from) and crying and complaining at all always comes off as a weak trait when it's in myself
I wouldn't call anyone what they call me, I try to be polite when I can. I just call myself these things, and so do other people.