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Default Nov 11, 2022 at 12:30 PM
 
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Mind over matter must exist. Today I felt about as depressed as ever. I told my plant goodbye, went to bed feeling so strongly I would never wake up. While laying down I heard a voice say, "You will be purged." Immediately after hearing that I started sneezing, again, and again. It must have been at least 20 times. After awhile I woke up but I could my heart wasn't beating. That made me very happy thinking it was true I would end. I drifted off to sleep again and woke up feeling my heart wasn't beating. That happened a few more times, but I never ended. What continued was the sneezing, every half hour an attack hit me like crazy. That was about 8 hours ago and the sneezing attacks are still happening but not as intense. Besides that I feel my normal self again. Just the normal depression. The all time low depression is gone. I was purged.

Today's my 1 month 31 day celebration of being free from suicidal ideation & suicidal planning after the purge. The changes can only be described as a miracle because I can't even begin to describe how different I am. I even see humans in a completely different positive way. It's not that humanity is evil. They're just learning and growing. Surely one day I'll make friends with people like me.


About 8 months ago I moved from California to Missouri and have hated every nano second of it, but due to financial issues thought I was stuck here for at least a few years. Thanks to not being a million percent depressed and suicidal and drained I'm so happy to have found a way to move back to Cali in 2 to 3 monthsand will be making money.

Thank you to the angel who purged me!!!!
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