Yeah, I know all too well what holding things in does.

I've always been the nice, quiet guy.
I've never been bullied, mostly because I'm probably intimidating (5'11", 205lbs., big rings, steel toes, large chrome choke-chain, etc...), but I also don't have close friends.

And I don't like dumping everything on my girlfriend. ( almost two years! ... July 14th! )

I tend to take my anger/frustration/emotions out by breaking stuff (usually already broken), slamming on the guitar, cranking up my stereo, and headbanging untill I feel sick... none of those are too great... oh, and playing GTA: San Andreas....

and as to the meds, it's kinda funny. We were on this Badger Care thing to help pay for meds, and they wanted to change what I was taking for depression!!