Dear T,
Sorry for falling apart when you said "I'll need to wrap you up." As you know, I try so hard not to overstay my time, and it really was just at the end of the time. Thanks for being kind about it and reassuring me that you weren't kicking me out. And still talking to me for a couple minutes after, though I wish we'd had like 10 more minutes. And that it wasn't a Friday, so I'd be seeing you sooner.

I did sit in my car in the parking lot crying a bit after and messaging with a friend. Had it not been pouring rain out, maybe I would have gone out someplace for a bit. If H weren't having surgery soon, I could have gone inside somewhere, but can't risk it right now.

I really had intended to talk about other stuff today, like revisiting some stuff from recent sessions, continuing threads from there. But I guess I'd been holding in stuff from that commercial for a few weeks now, so once I mentioned it, I unleashed a bunch of thoughts and feelings regarding D.

You seemed affected at one point. I do still wonder about your son, but of course won't go there--well, I suppose I know more about his birth now! I do wonder if I'm reacting in some way to your sharing that story. Though if I am, am I reacting to your sharing about your role as a husband, a father, or both? Interesting (though not surprising) that she gave birth in the same hospital as me--wonder if you used the same OB practice? And if you took childbirth classes where we did?

I may end up emailing, not sure. Part of me figures I should at least wait to see D's report card in a few hours, in case I want to talk about that instead of or in addition to whatever I'm feeling now. I'm not even totally sure what I want to say to you or what I'd want you to say back right now, and that's not a good basis for writing an email (see, I'm learning!). So I'll see how my feelings evolve over the next few or 15 hours.

Love,
LT