I'm ****en trying. This waiting is killing me, my moods not helping either. I did the best I could Christmas shopping but it has me so stressed out. My car is acting up. That's the last thing I need. I don't have enough for snow tires. So I don't know what to do about this. I'm scattered. Feeling like I'm wrong for just being. don't have my meds for long and I realize I stop eating and sleeping off medication and depression sets in. I'm not doing the best just on the lower does of one of my medication. I am at the point where I'm going to have to pick what medication to fill. I just can't think. I had to explain to my sibling that I eat/sleep BECAUSE I'm on medication not that I grew out of it and still a daily struggle for me. I really thought I was going to have to go IP the other day. I'm trying to figure out so much ****. Like where are we going to stay after the holidays if we don't have an apartment yet. Will we loose our voucher. If that happens then what. My protein shake is out so I have to try a different kind. at least this one I just need 1x a day. I'm realizing how little my food choices are. I just want to be home. My own home, my own bed, I'm getting all this pressure to keep our car when there is no possible way I only make so much these are the consequences of being poor. IDK.