Ugh - so my Sat night basically got ruined. A local girlfriend was supposed to go with me to a concert. She found out that her ex, who had physically beaten her, was going, so she had to back out the day of. So, I went alone.

I met a couple there, who kind of took me under their wing and let me stand in front of them up front near the stage. However, the woman kept touching my shoulders and pawing after me. She was very sweet and kind and kept making sure I could see the band because I am short, but the constant touching after a while started to get to me. So, I told her I was going outside for a smoke and to the bathroom, and I ended up instead deciding to leave. After my smoke, I stood in the back for a minute, but felt really lonely, so I left the show early.

I drove home feeling pretty bummed out - bummed that my friend couldn't make it, I felt badly for ditching the group I met, and I was bummed that I felt I had to leave early.

Then this morning I told myself not to feel guilty for ditching that group - I didn't know them and will probably never see them again. And she was pawing at me all night. I did allow her to buy me a drink - she had offered, so I felt a little bad for not at least saying goodbye.

I wish my girlfriend could have joined me - I was really wanting company last night. I stayed in by myself Fri night and was craving some company. And of course, I was missing my husband too because we used to go to concerts together all the time and he was my concert going buddy. Ugh ugh ugh. At least I got out and was brave enough to go for a while - one positive.