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Old Nov 13, 2022, 12:17 PM
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Originally Posted by unaluna View Post
Again, sorry. I meant any exercise.

I think its good that you want to share your life. Sometimes when im cooking, im also thinking, i would not want to split this with some weirdo guy. Have to worry about is it enough, does it taste okay? So yeah obviously ive gone around the bend!

Plus, even though i consider myself an old hippie, boy i do not understand the attraction of unattached sex (like maybe that one woman was looking for?). Maybe after i lose weight. But ive been keeping myself fat all my life. So...!

Anyway. We dont really get lessons or social support for being alone. But my experience in having a partner means my being their companion, not them being mine. Im not even able to select a movie (out) - somehow i always get it wrong. Eff that, i will go by myself.
I don't understand the attraction to unattached sex either, though right now I would do just about anything to put myself out of misery. And this is misery for me now.

My husband was not my true companion. I became a shell of the person I am around him, after learning I had to always walk on egg shells around him. I started to be very quiet and not share stories or parts of myself. That's not like me. But I was a good companion for him, because the world revolved around HIM.

I do need to start exercising - I agree, I just need to get off my butt and start doing it.
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