I had my last therapy session and I just feel numb kinda. It sort of feels like how I got cut out by my transference T right before Christmas 2020 and I had no one to get me through Christmas. I get that this is not the same thing at all. But like, it still hurts pretty badly. I start with my new therapist on December 5th. Ugh I can't tell if I'm in a lot of emotional pain or in a lot of physical pain from the workout I did this morning and the V8s I've been drinking. It started after therapy and it sucks whatever it is.

I am looking way too thin and I feel like things are getting out of control with this working out and food restriction stuff. I feel like I'm going crazy. I would for sure have been admitted to the ED unit if I were still living in my old state.