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Originally Posted by *Beth*
I'm sitting here crying for no reason and going downhill fast. I skated today and it felt fantastic, but the time comes when I have to take my skates off. In the past when it got toward this point I'd travel. No hesitation, just hit the road or book reservations for a plane. But that's not possible at this time.
I need to sleep and it's getting late again, but I'm afraid to sleep because I want to make myself not wake up. Plus, I also don't want to wake up. This forum is the only place in the world where I feel not hated right now. The pain and terror I feel annoys people, they misunderstand it. Or there are a very few who give me dumb advice. I appreciate their effort, but it also causes me stress, because I have to thank them when I feel like not saying anything. Or saying Please don't say that. You don't have to try to fix me. Also, don't listen to me, because I have nothing to say. I'm just in terrible pain. It won't end. I'm glad you exist, but please just go away and let me sit here and rock and cry.
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You are cared for here. You can and should cry as much as you need to but don't forget in this tiny bit of the world people care about you.
I'm sorry the depression is so bad. Is topamax good for depression? I take it but it's a long story and I have no idea what it does, just that it does something but I can nly tolerate 25 mg so I never found out what the full effect is.
Maybe you need an AD? I know you are done with SSRIs but there are lots of other choices. When I ran out of choices I started Emsam and that was 13 years ago.
Anyawy just wanted t give you verbal hugs besides the hugs button.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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