My P-Doc told me to work with my medication (SSRI), meaning it was no longer prudent for me to try to overcome thru bravado. Why pump adrenaline/cortisol into my system unnecessarily when I was already on overload? That made sense: So I stepped back and realized my natural sense of curiosity had never been balanced with my chemistry (traumatized childhood), so I began to learn HOW to feel curious but not act upon it because I preferred caring for my overall body. Gone was the feeling that an out of control person could upset my applecart just because they were called parent or authority. I claimed by own autonomy for the first time at age 54 and became okay with my limitations in not being able or willing to anticipate and figure everything out. I joined humanity when I started acting gently with myself. Better late than never.