(((((complic8d)))))

I am glad you have a T in your life who cares for you.

I found it very painful when my T first told me he cared about me. It immediately brought up the feelings of pain about not being cared about in situations when I should have been cared about, when I wanted those people who should have loved and cared about me to do so and they didn't. That was painful.

But yet there was great joy too, to at last being cared for and understood by someone who "gets" me. As time passes there is less of the pain associated with being cared for by my T and more of the joy and "feel good" feelings. I have started to feel like I deserve his care. And maybe that of other people too.