My family fell apart and left me on the streets as a teen. It had been bad for years but it got so crazy that I had to leave and my possessions were thrown away. I managed to "make my own way" but it never stops hurting. I can't forget how they humiliated me. It feels so embarrassing to have no family and no support system. They won't acknowledge anything, not even any estrangement. Even if I contact them again how am I supposed to trust them. I will not pretend nothing happened. But they can't get over themselves.

So what do I do now. Just keep living life with no family? Or contact people who will humiliate me. Or make my own family, except I don't know where to start. All that work I put into myself and in the end life doesn't seem worth living.