My anxiety actually isn't too bad today. Not like the crippling stuff I had been having. I called my pdoc yesterday to see if he could help me out and he was just like "we'll discuss things at your next appointment." Which is at the end of the month. This morning I felt decent though. And more positive about my Thanksgiving trip. I did a half hour workout at 5:30AM with my kettlebell and ab roller and I'm not in any pain. So I guess I just had to push through the pain those couple days instead of giving up. I've upped my calories but I still look too skinny so I'm not sure what else to do at this point because I want to build muscle. Protein shakes are not an option, they make me jittery. But anyways I've been fairly calm today regarding my moods and anxiety, and I've just had Project Runway on all day.