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*Beth* · Nov 18, 2022 at 04:47 PM

I missed the check-in yesterday for only the second time in years and I'm behind. I took this and that to sleep last night and finally did. So I feel somewhat more stable and will be able to mop, skate, and hopefully do some work with the book business. This day is very windy and the leaves are blowing all around. Our "snow" is leaves.

I gave Noah a call last night and we had a nice, long talk. He has such heavy responsibility with his job; I hope talking with me about it helped him to de-stress some. He said he's been bicycling a lot, riding 100 miles a couple of times/week. Said when he's crossing the Golden Gate Bridge/Robin Williams Tunnel out of the city and into the region along the coast line (called the Marin Headlands) he feels the stress just drop away. He expressed that so intensely. I compared that feeling of liberation to how I feel when I skate. There's something about the actual movement.

Anyway, it was an excellent conversation and I felt I called at a good time.

I want to thank you @wildflowerchild25for your support. Your metaphor about the ladder is such a helpful image. Unfortunately, I didn't see your post about Emsam @Blue_Bird, so I'm really glad you've mentioned it wfc.

I think Emsam would be an excellent option, most likely better than this very slow titration of Topomax. med dude is all but useless. He should have known about Emsam the moment I told him how badly depressed I'm feeling. He's fairly obsessed with a fear of causing me to become manic. Well, that's the least of my concerns. The last time I was really manic, which was more of a strong hypo-mania, was 5 years ago and I was barely on any meds. It's irritating. Depression is much more dangerous for me.

I have a med stupid dude appointment Tuesday, then Dr. D. (addiction dude) Wednesday. I'll see what goes with the 2 of them in terms of how well they listen to me/what they prescribe. If it's BS I'm definitely going to find another psych med prescriber and bye-bye med dude, Good Riddance.

Your lunch sounds fab @Blue_Bird! When I facilitated the NAMI Connection group we met at a supportive housing community. I loved that place. I met so many dear people. No one was isolated and everyone learned from each other how to get help in the community. I really hope to be able to live in a place like that some day. I have very nice neighbors here, but just people to say Hi to. I've never in my entire life been isolated like this and it's like physical pain.

That doggie is adorable @Fuzzybear. I would LOVE to see the photo of 4 year old Fuzzy!

Yay for decorations @Nammu! I'm going to buy some lights this week-end to hang in my apartment, cheer it up. Pink lights would be just the thing.

Hours cut @Aurelius710? Are they playing the holiday retail game with you? The spam dream is weird!

Thank you for your kindness @unlived.

Do you lift weights @Mountaindewed? I think you do. I got really into weightlifting when I was 37 - 42 & loved it! Got toned and muscular.

Hey there @MuddyBoots- I'm sending you love and a big, warm hug.

Clearly that pup is an angel sent to you and Steve @~Christina. 'Nuf said

Easy,
Beth