Dear T,
You're probably just sick of me. I know I would be, in your place. Or maybe I'm sick of you, or of being attached to you when you seem to have a limited amount of warmth to give out each month or quarter or whatever. I got some today, but it's like the first 10 minutes of session sort of negated that in a way.

I don't know how you'll reply to my email. I gave you the out of "let's talk next session" if it's a long or complicated reply. Please don't reply with something you know could be hurtful, especially if you opt for a paid reply. I mean, part of this conflict is about money. So I feel that would just make it all more complicated.

The thing is... part of me feels it's actually a good thing that I told you what was on my mind. It's progress in some way for me. Except your reaction makes me feel like my mom would have made me feel. You should be encouraging me to speak up. I mean, I understand it offended you. But you could both say "This offends me...but I'm glad you felt that you could share it rather than holding it in." There was none of that. It was about your emotions. Not mine.

I wanted to say "I'm sorry, I love you," but I only said the first part. Please be kind in your response. And/or on Monday. You know this is a rough time for me, so please take that into account.

Love,
LT