The person who molested me is dead. He died when I was 24. It's too late for me to do anything to punish him (I mean legally, charges, court etc).
Now, 6 years on, I feel like I can never 'do anything' about it. He is dead. The only thing that'll come of it now if I was 'to tell' is that my family will be hurt and have to go thru that. Can't do that to them. Just can't. I hate him for dying. How f***ed up is that? I hate him for dying. I wish he was here today to be punished. I hate that he is dead and got away with it all.
If I could, I wouldn't hesitate to report him to the police, to my T, to my friends, to someone so that he could be punished. If I could, I would put him in prison, where he should have been 20 years ago. But I'm too late. Too f****in' late.
Hindsight. What a wonderful gift.
I really do hope you're ok rem, I hope you're ok.
Talk it over, and make a decision for you.
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"Cogito Ergo Doleo"
(I think therefore I am depressed)
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