i cant even describe the dynamic of husband with the family. its so ick. i dont know how it would ever get better. only if something changes in him.
he says he is being alienated and he is disrespected. says we mistreated him.
the kids wont talk to him.
my daughter still has nightmares about him regularly. cries. says she is happier after he left and asked what does that say about her.
son and him got in a nasty text exchange almost a month ago. husband texts him today like it never happened and was surprised when son said to eff off still.
he ruled things before, and that's what he's used to. used to everyone working around his feelings and giving him what he wants.
i cant or wont force the kids to converse with him. he might feel better and they would feel worse.
we barely communicate. i still falsely think at times that there could be something good between us-not romantic of course, but perhaps healing. but the truth is he talks trash. he is delusional and has issues that prevent him from making a meaningful connection with others.
he is mean. stubborn. immature. petulant.
he is angry lashes out. misses the point, thinks he knows everything.
how did he get this bad? he has always been like this i guess.
he insults me freely. said "poor thing" to me today and other crap.
as bad as he is to me, always, i still feel sorry for him or sad for him, even though im not sure what about
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