I understand and empathise with your feelings and situation with therapists.
One told me that a cure doesn’t exist but support to manage ourselves can help.
I have come to accept that I am me, I didn’t choose to be me but I am me.
In a crisis I don’t want to be me at all but I am still me. It’s much harder to accept being me then…..
I send hugs, support and loving kindness dear Fuzzybear ❤️