Today is the first day where I feel sorta OK without my husband, meaning, I feel less lonely and more solid within myself. Maybe it also helps a lot that I went out and socialized both Friday and Sat nights. I am sure that this plays into how I am feeling today.

I also have to admit and be super honest with myself. It helps me to know my husband is missing me, regardless of everything. Perhaps it was more manipulation to try and rope me back in, but it felt good to know he is struggling without me. I know he will find someone else to replace me at some point and perhaps already has new supply. But whatever. His text yesterday helped me to feel a bit better.