I don't even know who I'm writing to at this point honestly. My eating sucked yesterday. I was way under my calorie goal and I worked out so hard I hurt myself. I had a dream about my transference T and I woke up missing her. But my anxiety got better the more I woke up. My stomach pain still sucks. I wonder if I damaged my spleen. I was smart enough not to work out today. I got out to the store for the first time in days to get some healthy foods. But I am still physically not hungry today but mood wise I am doing decently besides thie pain and I'm ok with being without a theapist right now.