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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
...There are things she did/does that I swore I would never do, so toxic and abusive...I am working hard at trying to stop this vicious cycle.
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I am so appalled that i have, all during my life, acted EXACTLY as my mother did, mostly towards me, but at home in general. Loud, obnoxious, self-righteous, selfish, and always right. Or completely passively, like my dad. I was either the abuser or the abused. Most of my relatives (i have 60 first cousins, altho some have passed) see my mother as a saint and me as the horrible daughter. I feel like wtf she never allowed me to BE me. But there IS a me, unknown to her little mind, that i always was and am now beginning to manifest.
Im glad youre back.