Dear T,

Thanks for all that today. I was super anxious before the session. And partway through, I was wondering if I was just squandering the hour, especially when you said how it seemed like I felt I needed to talk about what happened, but wasn't sure what to say, so I was just saying things. You were right, and I think it helped us find a direction.

I feel we had some really important discussion about the money, a possible enactment, what I share and look for from you, and the comparison in how I react to you vs. ex-MC, even if you say the exact same thing. I'll need to think on that some more, why that is. And how it seems I'm much more able to believe that he loved/cared for me as compared to you--which also seemed a bit like your admitting to that without coming right out and saying so. I'll just choose to take it that way. It did almost feel like you were jealous of his ability to affect me so positively. But like you said, it's likely his effusiveness.

I hope it's OK that I didn't let go of your hand as quickly as usual when we shook hands today. I think I just needed a bit of nonverbal reassurance, after all we'd talked about.

Love,
LT