Hey,

Take a deep breath. I get anxious about returning after a break, too. Some combination of wanting to share the deep stuff that I've been thinking about (and terror at the prospect of that) and also wanting to share about the stuff that has been going on for me (and worrying about my jabbering about that). It can take some time to reconnect. Maybe take a deep breath and take things one step at a time? When things seem a bit overwhelming sometimes it is our bodies way of letting us know to go easy / gentle with ourself. There is... All the time there is.