He hates me for things that have happened and all added up over the time of our entire 16 year marriage. How in the world does Anyone do anything about that?! Some of the things, he told me he forgave me for years and years ago. Some things he has mentioned a couple times and that's it. Some things I knew nothing about at all, even though he claims to have talked to me about. We none of us are perfect. But he says he wants to make his life better and improve it. I had no idea I was bad for his life. That hurts so deep. It hurts he won't tell me any more details any more either. He's just angry, cold, and doesn't care. He Doesn't Care. He just wants to be divorced and I just want to scream to him How?! Why?! You promised to ALWAYS!!! How in the world can a person feel such Strong Negative Emotions about the person he supposedly loved and cherished for So long?! I just don't get it! And I don't think I can make it through. I don't want to go on without him!!
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