It’s understandable the grief you experience seeing the family you wanted to exist is not as close and caring as you had hoped.

I have been badly traumatized by what my older sister did the last years of my parents lives. She manipulated my parents into giving her way too much control and proceeded to extort as much of their money and personal property for herself. I have had to have a lot of help and therapy to survive so many cruel and calculated things hinge my sister did.

Sometimes the worst people are right in ones own family.

I have definitely learn to look at people in a very different way. The person I thought my sister was really doesn’t exist. I was giving her qualities she did not and does not have. So not only did I have to grieve my parent’s deaths but also the death of the person I thought my older sister was too. It’s strange grieving a death of someone in your mind and that person is still alive.