I'm terribly happy I found this forum. That is covers more realms that just say a general medical forum or a psychiatry forum. I appreciate that actual Life situations here. And I have so far found everyone so very nice and helpful as possible. Even just lending an ear is good enough. I only have one friend in the world who I've never even actually met. I hate the town I live in. The people just don't change. Ever. That's why I was so happy when my stbexh and I got a wonderful house in another little town. Kind of like a suburb, but we're not that big over here. ;)

To Catsrock (I wholeheartedly believe that too!) and Buffy01, I have 3 family members living in the same town as me. My sister only helps a little. She's 10 years older than I am. Has her husbad and kids. My mom is the helper. Well, now she's the full helper. My husband used to love me and he would do just about anything in the world for me! It went from one day he loves me to the next day he said he should have done this long ago, so now divorce time and my life has ended so far as I've known it to have been all these years. I truly felt in my heart that we we're going to make it. All those years I felt that!! It seemed natural and preordained since the very first time we talked.

A breath. Soooo...... Part of me wants to live with Mom, cause I would be for sure safe and wouldn't have to run All the errands. And I wouldn't be alone and depressed. Part of me wants my own low-income apartment so that confidence will build. But I'm also really scared. And these low-income housings (I have no income) don't open up all the time. If I were to turn down the first opening whenever it comes up, I could end up waiting another year or more for a second to be available.

Short answer made Very long- my mom.