Thanks for the replies. I see my t tomorrow again, and I will try to discuss this with her. (I journaled, so maybe I'll just let her read it.)
It's weird how the thing we want the most (to be cared about/ loved) terrifies us so much.
Hang in there everyone.
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complic8d"Don't say I'm out of touch
with this rampant chaos-your reality
I know well what lies beyond my secret refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape."
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