Other than our 11 minute break (which is whenever) there is literally no time to go to the bathroom on days like today.
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I talked to my social worker just now and she just doesn't get it. She thinks it's all anxiety keeping me from wanting to go in and do it. It's not. It's the fact that I keep screwing up, I GOT FCCKING ROBBED, that there's a lot to be learned but no I'm just at the register all ****ing day mindlessly scanning things on registers that barely work... etcetera etcetera.

But I do need something to do so I'm not constantly binging and purging, using substances, and self harming (although I am using the 6 hours that are dedicated to work as an excuse to restrict, like I probably won't have anything to eat until 8pm tonight). It really is a low stress job when I think about it the right way, it's just not as good as my ride operator job and I keep comparing the two, and I miss yelling at people to sit down and put their phones away