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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots
That's the thing, I feel like I have even less structure because some days I work 9am-2pm and some days 3pm-8pm so my med schedule and my sleeping schedule (which were very strict before) are off. Some days I don't even take all my meds because I spend my entire break trying to pee and I forget to bring my bag to the bathroom with me.
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Hi MuddyBoots. I'm sorry to read that you became so ill as to harm to yourself. That is really serious! I truly think you need to discuss the value (or lack thereof) of working, at this time, with your psychiatrist, too. Or a friend or family member you think may actually understand.
I quoted your particular post above because you make excellent points about needing a
stable routine. This has been crucial for my well-being these many years. Forgetting medications, eating or sleeping, or even going to the bathroom, at varying times CAN make life more difficult and make us prone to episodes. Routine matters. Perhaps you could manage some other job that allows you to have such a routine? Something to really think about.
You're far from the only one whose done desperate things to "escape" a complex situation, or expectations. I've my own stories. It shouldn't have to reach those points. Letting it go that far can bring traumatic events that make recovery that much harder.
If your social worker truly doesn't "get it", she may or may not ever. Have you contacted your psychiatrist? Also, 11 minute breaks only (to include going to the bathroom) are inhumane. Now living in Europe and knowing what workers here get, it reinforces that notion 100 fold.