They don't hospitalize you here if you're not suicidal. I've already been to the hospital just a few days ago. They don't even hospitalize everybody who is suicidal. Some they will try to talk out of if they feel they are reachable at that moment. So, been there, done that, it wasn't easy for me to do, I know you know that.

Yes, I'm very much sitting on the edge right now and I am losing ground. Do something different? I don't know what to do anymore. I'm on a ton of drugs and in therapy, have talked with the crisis center, yet here I am, teetering and losing my footing.